TOGETHER. when a single word makes all the difference.
















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Today's problem statement
how can u make someone to have faith,
to trust you fully,AGAIN?
what are the factors that will influence you
to make that decision?


maybe you can look and think out of
the box, what do i mean by this?
stop the "once bitten twice shy"
thinking.


it means


"If somebody is said to be once bitten twice shy,
it means that someone who has been hurt or
who has had something go wrong will be far
more careful the next time. "

why do i say that? because as we all
know that as the clock is ticking
when the time is passing
seconds by seconds, days by days
months by months, years by years
do you realise that we are all changing?


every now and then?
some will turn from bad to worst
some might not be as good but at
least improved isn't it?


why chances, second ones are always given to those
that are 'bad'? ( you know what i mean)
and not to those who are better?
the question that i want to
find out will be
why do ppl alway judge others
by it's appearance?



or why do ppl alway remember the
bad things you had done, and not
the good ones?
that's really something that you should
ask around and explore.



to gain someone's trust again
is a huge challenge to someone
that had been hurt before?


i bet so.
of coz it's difficult
but is it never again?

so is it that they are scare
that history will just repeat by itself?
what is the past represent the future?
what have we learn at the
'adam khoo workshop'?
the past is not the future. right?
once bitten twice shy, this



powerful sentence can be use in
our daily life, anything.
but is it that once we got the bad
experience, then you are scare?
or you just dont want to get into it again?
why do ppl think like that?


the more you run the more you
avoid, the more it will hunt you down,
who knows when you overcome it again,
it will never be the same agin?
happier?
when it comes to 'realised'


a person will only feel stupid and
dumb when he understand what it means
by 'realised'.

this word can only be used for the past.
bcoz everytime when this word appear,
it's too late.



~
so after sooo much of explaination,


the main thing i want to know is that,
can i break throught the metal gates
of yours, and warm your heart once
again, 'promise' has great power in it,
that comes with great responsibility.
i will prove to be worthy enough for you
to trust me, again.

i will not repeat that again.
feel like wasting my time,
typing so much when you say a NO
and choose to shut your doors.


i know i can do better,
you will be happier.
then this post will not be necessary.
'Realised' , C's

saturday, went to my grandma hse with my cousin
as it been a long time since we went.
and they is only maid my my grandma.
so went over to fill the emptyness in the
house.

stay overnight at there.
tml school, gonna holiday soon.
LOL why so fast sia.
2 mths already? 0.O
hmm nvm then. we gonna fact it anyway.
alright tml school, sian.

good luck to those who are taking
O lvl tml. =)

REPLIES

yihui> WAAAAAAAAAAAa soooo sweet mehhhhh hahahahsd got motive ah u ass? suddenly treat me so nice hahahhasd =xx. peace peace. u know i feel the same way too=), what are best friends for! =D

daniel> yeahhhhhh gosh miss it hahads.

gwenn> LOL my bday is on 18/09 LOLLLL

winnie> hahasd harnor harnor, climbing roof top LOLL.

nyssa> hahasd yeah i am good thanks, hahads i will go bck if got time hahd.

leona> hahahahsd ah neh LOL, yeah loh hell lots of memories.

ahbee> hhasd sweee continue to do so.

Chenhuiqi> hahash welcome welcome =)) lucks!

xueyi> hahasd welcome =) i am in RP now. that smelly never tell u ah? hahasd.

LALA> hahasd thanks, and my bday is on 18/09.

Steph> hahas u ass, u sure u dont have poor memory? good luck man!=))

Germin> hahahas jyjyjyjy next mon yooo! hahahsd ,okok i will find time to go bck walk walk hahas

Ahbel> hahash dshutdup lah u ass.

cheexin> hahasd goood good still rem me at least! hahas.

~~
Yesterday and today's morning.



~~
had a great two days.
first lets go into yesterday.

hahashd yesterday we are told to wear formal to school,
do u know where am i gonna put my face?
soooo paiseh lah, not in public when people will only see
you once, and most probably not in the future.
but imagine in school, in class we had to wear it. LOL
since the teacher want us to wear of course she had
a reason to do so.

she wants to train us more in the speaking.
she expect us to treat the lesson as the real working
life Scenario where by we are working in the office
and presenting to some board of directors of
our proposals then.

alright so enough of the introduction, now comes the
headache part, shit man. the shirt the shoes the pants all
i dont have, because all dont look like formal, LOL
u think skinny is formal? hahashd.
okay so i went to buy long sleeve shirt at marina square.
then bought my leather shoes and tie at causeway,
pants from my dad, as its too small for him.

hahsd after the headache part is gone, lol
here comes the actual day, hahsd woke up early
in the morning, to dress up style my hair
( i cut short already) hahas so wont take up
much time. is just that my shirt wasn't so nice
to wear, damnnnn hott sia.

when i step out of my house, i look at the reflection
WAAAAA i stunt! look at myself and say myself
crazy, hahas go sch wear untill like salesman
going to work. SOT de hahas.
went to take bus SAME people stare!
when i reached causeway mrt WAAAA
even worst more eyes! soooo paiseh sia hahas.

after that went to meet friends and co at the taxi stand!
reached school liao when we are about to go in, we saw
some teacher coming in as well, we look much more nicer
than them and we look like lectures! hahahsd. SERIOUS!
no joke. reached class liao do my tie, LOL sia
machiam really go work. (pictures coming up)

after we meeting 3 we were told to go to some meeting
room near the teacher's office, wow we were professionals.
hahasd i am acting like one.
okay so i will just go into when our groups were
presenting the most funny group will be
naq my and lihao hahash they very LL.

so when it's our turn to present wohooooo
i happy untill siao ah, my opposite side ,
that means the other teams from other class
will present to us and we will be the judges to
approve or reject their proposals.
but i couldn't concentrate hahahhasd.
there is one girl goshhhh her eyes!!! AHHHH
sooo attractive hahahsd, but too bad she prefer angmos!
LOL suay hahashahhasd.

alright that the presentation we wanna meet
togther and go to eunice house to watch
MAN U moscow finals! hahashas.
so went off with alica, as she wants to go to
her bf hosue which is very near to my house?
so we took cab and spam alott of pictures ! hahas.

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time for pictures.


E35J


It's me hahas.


again.


our class formal wear.


second pic with our teacher in red


second one.


candid shot hahd.

~

We were at canteen and woooos took some pics.


hahad i feel sooo tall.
they are my secretary.=D


group pic

~

in cab


cool pic


start of the spam


hmmm i find this pic quite nice hahas.


this one too. =DD


same goes to this =DDD


hahad dark!


cheese!


solo


shhhh, i am driving.


=DD


cab


haaaa my shoes!


last pic before i alight.


again!


hahad i like every pic! alll nice leh!


My fav pic hahahd.


thats all for formal wear! so any comments?
like nooo black? too fake? hahahsd.
~~


next is MAN U WONNNNNNN!!!!
KING OF EUROPE!!!! WOHOOOOO!
the penalities taking is soooooooo exciting
john terry hahahhahahad CRY only!
too bad. devils again!

september 18th 1990

some people will forget my birthday,why?
maybe you all just remember,

9x2=18 OR 9+9=18

OR

mutiple of 3
3x3=9 /

9x2=18
9+9=18

OR

3 square = 9
/
9+9=18
9x2=18

easy? it all comes back to
18/09/1990 hahas =D.
~~

In this very day i was born. Of course i came out of my mother's womb.
My memory only stuck at when i was only 4years old or 5 i think.
Have you ever wonder why you can't remember anything before that?
And some of the memory some of the interesting things
you can still remember it and laugh at how clumsy
and stupid you once were? hmm do u only remember
those which left a deep impression in it?

i guess most probably yes to most of us, thats no
surprise though. then you will hear from your
parent saying that how naughty you were at 3 or 4
and you are like 'HUH? are you sure?" hahass.
isn't that fun? when you are a father or mother of
your own child, isn't that something sweet and amazing
to see your kids expression at the moment.
awww some things in this world that is priceless
is one and only, memories that you got.

I was bored and i suft the net, read some of the blogs.
scan through some of the pictures that was in my
laptop. hahsd i can still smile at some of the pictures.
those were the time.

Alright next i began search things at wikipedia
i realise that on my birthday there is alot of
unpleasant events going on around the world,
in the past of course.
wars, people killed alot of things.
weird lol.

~
Oh yeah now, more about myself.
i realised that i had not been chatting or smsing
or calling my secondary school friends. LOL
is it that i forget? hahasd. =x
alright sorry friends at zhenghua and other
polys as well.

There is still weird feeling between poly and sec sch.
i still prefer sec sch, dont know why.
maybe is because the time we spend tgt is longer
and we had knew each other for so long too.

A MESSAGE TO THOSE WHO IS STILL STUDYING
: treasure your time, dont waste it. spend your time
meaningfully. in your life, you only go to secondary
ONCE and thats it! it will be the best chapter of your life.
it is when you are still growing, cherish man.

ahhh when it comes to cherish, BULLSHIT right?
i guess i am not suitable for this word.
this is such a big word, really big word.
don't say you have cherish every single thing when you
are not.

because, yeah talk is cheap, use action to prove.
AGIAN, for those who alway thought that
when i keep quiet i am emo-ing,
this is the last time i will be saying this.
when i am keeping quiet, i will be only doing one thing.
THINKING.

i alway spend my time on thinking?
do a self reflection, on?
the past? the present? friends?
the one that i regret the most ,relationship?
i thought, i was the best guy or friend
that you can ever be with, hahas what a joke.
tacit knowledge, can't be explain using words or mouth.

you will know.
hmm chinese O lvls coming,
just next week guys.
WORK HARD yo.
good luck hahahsd. peace.

ciaos.

15th of may

since winnie has request to post the pic,

hahas i shall upload it and share with everyone.

now the question comes, see the picture up there?

would i be a good father next time?

well, it's difficult to say.

BLA BLA BLA BLA and BLAAA yeah

yeah i am a violent person, well only to those who

i don't like, get it?

i don't beat the one that i love hahas, maybe just

playing around but strictly NO!

Don't judge a person by it's appearance and action.

u never know.

hahahahs today is the UT day man.
okay lah the questions.
okay here are some of the pic we took
jus now.

playing with webcam again hahahahs.

~~

formal? hahas.


i didn't realise that ahbel is in this pic hahahs.


look at all the faces hahahs.


hahhas fun


WOHOOO.


Laughter in E35J


~

ciaos

It's not over-
Secondhand Serenade

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

Yihui> mimiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii hahahahhash, i will forget u de meh? u stupid hahahahs., think sooooooo much for what aiyoooo. chill chill.

Shazalind> hahas yeah okay thanks =D.

peipeitan> hahas i join the 'Capoeira' hahahs dont really know how to explain it. u go search loh den see urself, u got join cca? hahas.

JEWELLCY =)> ahhhhhh jewel jewel omggggggoshhh sooo long den reply my tag? LOL sia wa liew jus like that loh forget me lah u smelly ass CNR hahahs. soooo long since we last contact each other loh, the curve ruler at plaza waaaaa u smelly lah xD. i've been damn good? i guess hahas. you you you? =D. comon rem me yeah hahahs.


~

3rd of may

hell lots of laughter we had yesterday night
hahahs.

zong ji mi ma, indian poker? , heart attack.
LOL loh hahahs. eat and eat drink and drink.
Mingyuan face sooooo damn red, mine too i guess.

so tired, so return home in the morning, here i am.
ahhh i am so dumb, hahahs cant wake up still.

hmm feeling take over the situation,
temptation? LOL quit it man,
jus like how i control everything so easily.

peace, ciaos.

AHBEL> LOL attract girls? later girls be with me jus for my muscles how? i am a piece of shit for showing off nia meh, i can train untill their size also. patience and time. u see.
shandy> hahas aiyooo without dragonboat won't die de lah, but is really boring lah.
AHBEL> yeah i know i know hahahs.
norin> LOL wanna play again huh, kana slap hahahs.

Capoeira
~~


today is the 2nd of may
have science module today, hahas not
bad lah my group quite fun, esp shak.
he is full of craps hahas. cant stop laughing.

plan to go jurong point and watch
iron man with .... but she can't make it
sooo sad lol. but nvm after that
went to watch the dont know what show,
someone just keep on screaming
sooooo scary sooo scary hahahahs.
so funny sia hor!!! that someone hahas.

okay i have been thinkin alot alot alot these few
days, done some reflection of myself, the things
i've done. i decide to quit DragonBoat
okay lah, i struggle while making this decision.

i know that DB is a cool sport is for handsome
guys and u can get fit if u train hard.
this sport need determination, is not that i
don't have determination, i can run i can do
weights i can do anything just to get fit.

but is just that i am not interested in DragonBoat
at all, its jus sooooo boring man,
other than running it will be gym,
after gym den run, it jus keep on training and
training.

and i just don't want to waste my time on this sport.
now why? why do i think that it is jus a waste of time?
well, firstly think for urself do u use up alot of time
trying to 'learn' something?
yes right, for example studies or playing basketball.
basketball require practice and u will learn something

from it, but dragonboat is not the case, u never learn
anything except tranining all day long.
okay lah DB still got some use, it really train u on
TEAMWORK. it's really good but i am 18 yrs old
already, i dont want to waste my time like that.

one week 7days, mon wed fri training, sat got paddling
at seletar, in future got sun also, EVEN WEEKENDS?
LOL that means in future 1 week training 5 days?
holyshit. how to tahan?
SURE fit de i must say, if u dont have determination
please please dont join DB, bcoz u sure quit.

i am a guy who likes to try things that are challenging,
thats why i joined the DB, but is like training is challenging
the main point is that i wanna learn something NEW!

so i decide to quit, thats final!
too bad den.
so next wed maybe if i can join,
i will train together with ngweixiong
he is in the brazilian capoeira.

thats what i am talking about,
the difference between
learning and training.
in capoeira if you guys dont know can go
youtube and watch. it somehow like
breakdance and fighting?

thats what i see lah,
so i think that it will be a interesting
interest group for me, sooo... yeah.
i tot of joining, rugby or cycling or
running, swimming and more.
but capoeira seems fun so thats it.

see how on monday.

Money can't buy Love.



















I've been thinking about this question for a very long
time. Finally, i realised the mistake that i had
made in the past. A big mistake, when recalling it,
i know that i could have done better than that.
All those beautiful memories, all those moment we
spend together.

everywhere i go, there is shadow of you.
Can lost Love be saved again?